Bah... not really in the best of moods right now. Just recieved my first semester results. Extremely extremely upset by it. If i were to rate how lousy i feel about myself right now
it would be 25/100.... yeah the same result mr moore gave me for my java assignment and i spent nights on it. Did i underachieve? Did i not spend enough time staying up late? Did i not put in enough effort in it? Did i not know where i was going? Did everyone who had a pass put in more effort than me? They're probably smarter than me. Sigh. I dont know what to feel right now. My brain is empty, my heart is hurting, my tears are rolling, my hands are typing. I asked for a second chance and i was damn lucky to be blessed with it again... my dua bei gong(some chinese god) gave it to me and what the hell did i do? I ruined it. I dissapointed my mum, my dad, my dua bei gong, and most of all, i dissapointed myself the most i think.Sigh. Whatever. Tomorrow the sun will still rise. Still have to get on with it pass or fail, tears rolling or not rolling, heart breaking or not breaking. I think i'll just go get a goood sleep and wake up tomorrow. It'll probably do me some good. Alot of self reflection to do.