..Yellow!...what a way to spend my saturday night. Been working on the brand new image slideshow for the dumb e commerce website till i got bored of it or moreso, i just got a lil heated up just now cos i cant seem to get the "moving" effect. BAH... I swear im starting to feel empty inside these days. Ive been through quite a few changes since the jaw op, both emotionally and physically.

Physical
- lower jaw became shorter
- lost weight cos im strictly on liquid diet(sigh)
- swollen around the cheeks and lips area
- eye bag situation became better cos my mom dragged me out of the "4 hours sleep a day" lifestyle.
Emotional changes
- become more appreciative of the wonderful people around me and things also. feeling very very very blessed lately, even though its small things that people do. it's this very warm and nice feeling i dont ever wanna let go off. =)
- more optimistic in my thinking. A friend came to me that day, citing tat she was having trouble at work cos she was new and had to learn something tat was pretty complicated that was done by some professional. In return, i told her that well, if she was able to actually break down whatever that professional has done, by the time she finished what she's learning, she would be somewhat be able to do wat the pro did. I think i even was more surprise myself cos i was tat pessimistic to the extent that it wont be me to say those kind of words.
- i feel empty and i dont like it!!!! life b4 op was pretty busy for me, with the website, friends, work to keep me alive. now tat i have all the time in the world, i begin to have an empty feeling inside. tried watching vcds (da chang jin) .. but still didn't cure it. Then i realised after awhile that this empty feeling was due to the fact that i wasnt doing something productive everyday, and i wasnt learning anything to improve myself. To me, everyday is a gift to me, so its up to me to live my life to the fullest. So, i've decided..1 VCD for me per day. Then im gonna spend the rest of the day doing something productive. Like wat? you may ask.. haha. Im itching to do something with photoshop lately, wait i think i already have a theme...i want the song tuesday morning by michelle branch to have some input on the image itself. ...arrgghh.. its hard for me to explain it to you over here, but yeah, i'll post the image so you can see the effects. Wow, i cant wait to start... till the next entry!!!...=)

Shibe
walked alone
4:50 AM

12.48 am

Hmm...i'm kinda in the mood to write today not write as in blog... but as in do a real piece of essay itself. Its been 3 years since i last did this kind of writing...had a whole collection of all my writings since sec sch cos i couldn't bear to throw those pieces away. Was working on my portal just now till i finally decided on the topic for today.

- Second Chances -

Ever wished upon a falling star for a second chance? A second chance to change things the way they are now, a second chance to start all over again, a second chance so that mistakes can be undone? Though the present is what we live in now, inevitably we do look back in the past, and wonder if we had done things differently, maybe it would have been a better tomorrow for us, maybe our lives would have taken a different path, maybe we would have become a different person. Sometimes, second chances do come by, but would it mean that the same mistakes wont be repeated? Would it mean that second chances would really change things the way they are today? Would we be truly happier if we were given a second chance?
Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.
William Jennings Bryan (1860 - 1925)







*~ signing off - dont look back in anger by oasis

Shibe
walked alone
9:46 AM